Dear destiny, I'm ready now

Se olisi sitten viikko pulkassa ja uusi alkamassa ihan pian. Mitä tästä viikosta voisi sanoa? Aika paljon on tapahtunut erilaisia asioita ja eri osuudet elämässä loksahtavat viimein paikoilleen. Mummin ja perheen kanssa vietetty aika antoi ehdottomasti perspektiiviä elämään.

Kiteytettynä voisi ainakin sanoa sen, että elämä täytyy vain elää tässä ja nyt. Ei odottaen sitä kaikkea mitä tulevaisuudessa tulee ja toivoo tapahtuvan eikä myöskään eläen menneisyydessä jolloin asiat olivat niin ja näin.

Hetkessä elämämisen vaikeus ja siihen pyrkiminen näyttää olevan todella ajankohtainen monen ystäväni elämässä tällä hetkellä -joten ei siis vain minun. Minusta tuntuu, että minä olen nyt valmis laskemaan irit vanhasta viimein ja suuntaamaan eteenpäin ja ottamaan hetken vastaan sellaisena kun se tulee avoimin mielin ja kirkkain silmin. Silloin kun se tunne tulee, niin sen vain tietää.

Vielä kuukausi sitten tuntui kamalan vaikealta päästää irti ja ensi reaktio oli syvä melankolia, mutta nyt aika näyttää olevan kypsä eikä samanlaista tunnetta enää synny kun asiaa ajattelee. En puhu tässä nyt minkään tietyn asian tiimoilta vanhasta irti päästämisestä, vaan puhun yleisemmällä tunnetasolla irtipäästämisestä ja eteenpäin siirtymisestä.

Flower talk

We used to have flowers at home relatively often when I was a child. I remember always liking them and thinking to myself that once I grow older I will also have flowers in my house.

I think flowers are an easy way to make any home look warm and welcoming. I have been keeping a vase of flowers on the kitchen table, so every time I go in, I will have something that welcomes me to the room. Because, at the end of the day, I personally think that it is all about the little details and small things that can make you feel good and happy about something and you don't necessarily need to have expensive things around you to do the same.

At least for me, little silly details in my daily routines are something that I enjoy having, and the best thing is that the sky is really the limit when it comes down to deciding what works for you. Little luxuries can be anything, just a little bit of imagination and voilá! For example, a bouquet of flowers, linen napkins, good hand cream in a beautiful glass pot on my night site table or apples in a lovely bowl on the kitchen table are my little daily luxuries, which I do not mind spending a little money on. I have always enjoyed aesthetically beautiful things whether they were flowers, glass pots, combination of colours, combinations of textures or interesting shapes and forms. Almost everything goes as long as it pleases my eye.

So here is a little ode for my lovely daily luxuries and eye catchers: flowers.

Lilies the flower of death. Hah, nice. Well, I think lilies are the most beautiful flowers on earth so I don't really care whether they are traditionally connected with funerals or not. I cannot emphasise enough how much I love these flowers. I have simply admired them since I first laid my eyes on these beauties -especially the white and pink ones. My newest find has been calla lilies that I brought home for the first time yesterday (dark purple lilies underneath the white ones)

Carnations the flowers of good luck. Like these in white and salmon pink.

Tulips yes love them! Whites, purples and light pinks are definite on the favourite list.

Lavenders remind me of the French Riviera and the Provence area, so these light violet beauties will always have a special place in my heart and mind.

Roses the ultimate flowers of love -erhm NOT in my mind! In fact, personally, I don't think roses are very nice flowers anyway- unless they are white or light orange. Then I do like roses too, but it is completely different story with red, yellow, pink and blue roses. Seriously, I cannot stand them :) I know this is not a girly thing to say, but yeah red roses (especially) send cold shivers down my spine - and those shivers are not the good ones you might get at times :D

Feeling really happy today :) I woke up at 7am, even thought I would have had all the time in the world to have a nice lie-in. But no, I was wide awake ridiculously early, typical I say. So I got out of the bed, took a shower, had breakfast, packed my gym bag and left home. Later in town I had lunch in a sushi place and nipped in a second hand shop briefly- with no luck.

I just got back from England and it was amazing. Loved every second of it.

Dissertation submitted [X]
Shop until you drop [X]
New plans for the future [X]
Wine, good food and friends over funny conversations [X]

Catch the plane back home [X] -thanks to Matt and the ability to smile nicely at the check-in counter

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This is so my song of the moment!!!

Viikonlopun tunnaribiisi

syksy on saapunut kotiin <3

I made a big mistake yesterday evening as I watched most of my old pictures through. It took me more than an hour (and a glass of wine) and even though it was lovely to flick them through and being able to revisit certain moments, it made me a little bit sad and melancholic too. After I had flicked them through I guess it felt it was a big mistake to watch them all because all those great moments I had had seemed so distant as if they would have been something that had happened such a long time ago. It was almost like some things would have been part of my previous life in some sense, and I guess they indeed were. And I was missing them. Or no, I wasn't missing them, I was happy that I had them and I had met all those people, but I don't know. This might sound strange now, but I had this feeling of "if I would only have known how many great things there were to come when I was sad".

I've been thinking about this a lot this year; why is it so hard to let go of something? I mean I was so much looking forward a change in my life six months ago, and it did happen, but I don't feel the change as strongly as I thought I would have felt once it would actually happen. seriously, will I flick through my pictures again in three years time and have the same sadness and melancholy in me and think to myself how little I knew then. Maybe I will, I don't know.

Sorry, I don't know where this sudden strike of sadness came from all of the sudden. It is not even that time of the month for goodness sake! I mean I'm satisfied with everything at the moment (see the wording satisfied...), not overly happy or glad, which makes me wonder if I'm actually a little bit lonely. I have lived with other people for the past four years and this summer I have lived on my own and I have caught myself pondering the same thing in a few other occasions as well; am I lonely?  Is this loneliness? Is it really that I am feeling lonely or is it just that once you have been used to something and it changes then you feel misplaced? Who knows. Well, I'm sure I will survive through this sudden feel of "loneliness" quite perfectly :) I just have to go out and see someone! Action plan sorted.

I found this amazing blazer yesterday, even though I thought it was a little bit too expensive for a Zara blazer, but then again, it could be an investment and become an all time favourite, if it would fit amazingly. Then I would definitely get it -regardless of the price tag. The best thing about this blazer is the combination of the three different colours on it; black, grey and silver. Yup, hands down that did it for me. To me (and my wardrobe) these particular colours would make the blazer itself a smart easy-to-wear-item, which wouldn't make you appear too old or overly grown up either. Also, because of the colour combination, the blazer would be easily matchable (is that even a word?) with other accessorise too. Funnily enough, I have been eyeing on these kinds of blazers since last spring and have been trying various different ones from various different labels -so far none of them has been perfect either in terms of their fit or colour. So people, I think we have some potential over here!

Eilen piti vähän juhlistaa tekemällä hyvää ruokaa ja ottamalla lasin viiniä. Sain mun työpaikkaharjoitteluprojektin valmiiksi, joten se vaatikin jo vähän maljan nostamista. Menulta löytyi uunipunajuuria parmesanjuustokuorrutuksella, uuniporkkanoita ja naudan pippuripihviä kanttarellivoinokareella. Hmmm, yummy.

Kuuliaisena kansalaisena päätin tänään tukea Euroopan taloutta takaisin jaloilleen ja kulutin. Ostin Banana Republicilta kaksi mekkoa

 Kerastaselta hoitoaineen

ja Dermalogicalta puhdistugeelin ja kosteusvoiteen

 

Nyt on sitten ostokset tehty. Mä olenkin ollut yllättävän hyvin ruodussa ylimääräisen ostelun suhteen koko kesän ja tämä on hyvä. Kotiin tietysti pitäisi ostella uusia juttuja, mutta kaikki aikanaan.

Olen taas menossa käymään Englannissa parin viikon päästä. Jee :) Tällä kertaa palautan lopputyön ja käyn tekemässä uuden työsopimuksen englantilaisen työnantajani kanssa loppu vuotta koskien. Samalla reissulla menen vierailemaan Mattin vanhempien luokse, minkä vuoksi lennänkin joko Lontoon-Manchester välin tai sitten toisinpäin Manchester-Lontoo välin. No, kummin päin, då ska vi se. Kiva nähdä myös kavereita siellä päässä kun kesä on mennyt niin nopeasti ettei keneenkään ole ennättänyt pitää niin paljoa yhteyttä kun olisi toivonut.